“My journey to motherhood has not been the easiest, but I still consider myself very lucky. Becoming a mother was something I always dreamed of. When people asked me as a child what I wanted to be when I grew up, I always knew in my heart that the answer I really just wanted to say was “a mother”. So, when I was diagnosed with a pretty difficult to treat case of lean PCOS (Polycystic Ovary Syndrome) and given a 7% chance of conceiving without IVF, we were devastated.
I developed some rare complications after my egg retrieval that almost took my life and I had to spend a few weeks in the ICU and hospital before starting my long recovery. Then, several months later, we were able to transfer one of our few embryos and found out we were expecting. We were overjoyed and so incredibly excited, but that first little baby’s heart stopped beating and we lost him/her in the first trimester. Anyone who has gone through infertility and/or loss can probably relate- would I ever get to be a mother? Why did my child have to be taken from us? Why were we being put through all this? All thoughts that we could have let ruin us. My husband and I didn’t lose hope though and we tried to stay as positive as we could going into our second embryo transfer months later.
Now, I am in my third trimester, feeling every little (and big) kick and movement and just so thankful every single day that goes by. This little girl I’m carrying is truly our miracle baby and I have treasured this time so much. We can’t wait to meet her, but something I’ve come to realize through everything we’ve been through is that you become a mother before your baby is ever born. She already is the most important thing to us and I would do anything for her. We have never been more grateful than we are now, to have the honor of getting to be parents to our sweet baby girl…”
“…Photography has always been a big part of my life. Luckily, my family has always taken tons of photos and I have loved being able to look back on them and cherish those moments. Old photos of my parents before they had me are some of my favorites- they inspire me because they still love each other so much after all these years and I have loved seeing them so young and happy together. I knew I wanted to have maternity photos done, not so much for myself, but for my daughter. I wanted her to be able to look at these when she is older and see/feel how excited we were to have her. As a photographer myself, I also place a huge value in having quality photos taken of life’s most special moments. There’s just something about fine art photography and film in particular that lend perfectly to capturing the emotion and feeling behind the photos and we were so excited to work with Samantha again.” Cherie, Expectant Mother
SAMANTHA KIRK PHOTOGRAPHY | Contax 645, Fuji 400h
Film Processed By: Pro Photo Irvine