“If you were to ask me 4 years ago where I would be right now in my life, I never would have dreamt it would be here. I was never sure of what I wanted for the future, I still learning about who I was. Well…this is it! I’m right where I belong. I met my husband and instantly fell in love. We were engaged and married within 6 months. We wanted to start trying for a family right away and without a hitch, we conceived. At around week 20 I started getting immense pain which brought me to the hospital. No one really knew what was happening but through test after test and a terrifying surgery, they discovered I had a tumor. I was dumbfounded. It left the rest of my pregnancy in a shadow of sadness and fear. I felt frustrated and angry. In the end I was one of the lucky ones and only needed more surgery and have since been labeled as “cured”. The doctors said to me if it weren’t for this baby causing pressure on the tumor we may have not found it until it had spread. This was my little miracle babe. He came into this world right when he was supposed to. He made me who I was always supposed to be, a mother.
Fast forward 3 years and here I am, pregnant with my second babe; a girl! I am truly taking every moment of this pregnancy in as I feel more than blessed to be here today and to experience this for the first time all over again. Having dealt with a dark shadow over my first pregnancy, with a cancer diagnosis and surgery, I never ended up having any photos taken, as it wasn’t the joyous time I had hoped for. Our focus wasn’t what it should be as a first time mom. For this pregnancy I was determined to only see the joy and miracle that it is. Take in every moment that arose. Having these photos means so much for me, not only for this pregnancy but for my first as well. My body has done some incredible things like keeping me alive and bringing two beautiful little people into this world. I am forever grateful.
I think motherhood can mean different things to each individual person. It’s a never-ending definition with many emotions attached. It’s being confident in knowing that ‘mom knows best’ and then instantly realizing you know nothing at all. It’s a daily emotional roller coaster that seems to end the day with an immense amount of love to the point you just want to watch them sleep. Being a mother has finally made me feel that I am exactly where I am supposed to be in this world.” Lydia, Expectant Mother
ELZA PHOTOGRAPHIE | Canon 5D mark III, Sigma Art 50mm 1.4