“And is this is your first pregnancy?”
“And how many children?”
We had had many visits to the hospital for tests and monitoring while pregnant with my daughter, and after verifying my name and birth date they would always ask this while checking off the boxes on their chart. Even with the happiness of this pregnancy, I felt my heart sink each time.
My husband and I didn’t know if my body would sustain a baby “to term” and I spent much of that pregnancy doubting it. But I had decided that every baby deserved to feel loved right from the start, no matter far along in the pregnancy it survived. After 41 weeks and 5 days, Isla was born a totally normal newborn. In the case of pregnancies and babies, normal is the most wonderful result you can hope for. However, it wasn’t until she was in my arms that I allowed myself to realize and celebrate that this baby was real and my body had given her all that she needed to make it here.
When we found out I was pregnant again we went through the same doubt as the times before, but there was a weight lifted. We now knew that at the end of this there could be a healthy baby. We’ve had many ups and downs the last couple of months with the baby’s growth slowing and other related complications. Now at 2.5 weeks before my due date, and after a month of bed rest to help her grow a little more, our OB is ready to talk about induction and couldn’t be more excited to finally meet our little girl.
Thinking back to months ago, at 19 weeks pregnant we were eagerly awaiting our ultrasound that would tell us if we had a healthy baby and if it was a little boy or girl. I was hesitant, but Elza inspired me to celebrate and document my little bump with a photo session which was something I would have never allowed myself to do last pregnancy. Not only did she make me feel beautiful and connected to my bump and my 1 year old daughter, but her photos will forever remind me of a mama who has learned to trust and love herself and her body; of a woman who’s not afraid to reflect on and learn from each step of her journey no matter where it leads.” Erika, Expectant Mother